bLUe cieLo

teringat akan kenangan di kota ini beberapa tahun silam…
saya, risca dan beberapa kawan psik.
malam itu kami pergi ke CCF untuk menonton pentas teater.
judulnya "Ming"
seorang pengembara terus berjalan mencari sang pengendara sepeda,
namun tak jua bertemu
lalu dalam perjalanannya ia berjumpa dengan ming,
yang hanya diam, tak bergerak.
sang pengembara berkulit putih. ming berkulit coklat.
dua dunia bertemu pada satu titik.
di persimpangan jalan.
dua budaya, dua pandangan-dunia yang berbeda.

ternyata, tidak terjadi apa-apa.
tidak ada perkelahian, keributan, pertengkaran.
mereka hanya bercakap-cakap lalu masing-masing meneruskan jalannya.
ternyata, kita dapat bertemu tanpa saling melabelkan.
tanpa penghakiman, dan penghukuman.
tanpa benar/salah, tanpa baik/buruk.
yang ada hanya jalan dan perjalanan.
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saya sedang mencoba untuk jatuh cinta lagi pada dunia.
seperti lagu John Lennon yang berjudul ‘oh my love’

Oh my love for the first time in my life,

My eyes are wide open,

Oh my lover for the first time in my life,

My eyes can see,

I see the wind,

Oh I see the trees,

Everything is clear in my heart,

I see the clouds,

Oh I see the sky,

Everything is clear in our world,

Oh my love for the first time in my life,

My mind is wide open,

oh my lover for the first time in my life,

My mind can feel,

I feel the sorrow,

Oh I feel dreams,

Everything is clear in my heart,

Everything is clear in our world,

I feel the life,

Oh I feel love
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while i’m living in this city, at this moment
i realize that there’s nothing NEVER happened.
everyone and everything are on their movement.
the earth too.
our mother nature is a dynamic system,
it’s only has a different scale and rhytm of time from ours.
we just don’t appreciate another creature movement
because we feel that we are different and separated from them.
it’s just an illution.
and then i laso realize,
that i was, and i am, nothing compared to whole things
that ever happened in this world.
i’m just a little dust, hoping to find meaning.

maybe i’m just affraid of nothingness.
after war, tears, pain, regret, hatred, greed, murder,
desease, foolness, narrow minded, indifference happened on earth…
still we do believe in something?
should we?
i’m wondering, where’s the virtue?
and it keeps running in my mind…
we must cut ourselves free from hatred

may all beings be well and happy
(Sabbe Satta Bhavantu Sukhitata)